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No reason...just stuff

Things are a little slow at the moment at work and it's occurred to me that I haven't really posted much here in a while. I'm sorry about that! Although as I clearly have the time to type a few thoughts I realize.....Um, ...hm.....I don't know what to say!! Sad. Just sad.

As life has really come to be in the summer, things are busy. And of course I can't be content with the current busy-ness, I need to add to it. Because that's what people do, right? We usually spend summers doing a lot of visiting (whether that's us traveling or people coming to see us) and getting stuff down around the house. Now that Gavin's such an independent, sassy little pistol, if it's nice out I try to get him outside at much as possible. Then there's the yard, garden, books I'd like to read, and my neverending obsession with food (cooking, baking, freezing...). Life in the summer can just be a little bit crazy!

This year I started attending a women's bible study group. So even though choir is done for the summer, I still have a weekly commitment that, though it's such a joy to go, it is still one more thing and one more way to wear me out. I love these women and I'll be sorry to see it end in a few weeks. I'll be happy to have a few extra minutes to do the dishes and decompress before going to bed. There's pros and cons no matter what.

But within this last week I've decided that my life just isn't crazy enough. Our church had a Praise Team that unfortunately kind of fizzled out a few months ago. Though people enjoyed the music, the team was having a hard time getting people to join the group and help lead music. Well, the wife of the driving force behind the team of course is in my bible study. Music in church has ALWAYS been such an important part of worship for me. So I mentioned I was sorry that the team ended and if there was a possible resurrection of it, I'd be interested in joining. Well, she took me seriously and now this week I'm meeting with her husband to go over music for the church picnic on August 2nd. Right now it's just one performance but I think we're both hoping this may bring back the Praise Team. Oh, and you think this will replace the regular choir for me? Well, no, hadn't had any intention of doing that but we'll see how things go. ;)

So why am I doing this to myself? Especially now with Gavin's birthday party coming up?? I'm crazy. And I'm fed up. I get fed up with whiners and complainers (me oh-so-included in that group) who always talk about what they'd like to see happen around them but aren't willing to be the ones to make that happen. I have a kid now so I'm a reasonably active Nursery user at church. Seems only right that I give my time there too once a month. Love to sing? Join choir! Bummed about no more Praise Team? Be a part of possibly bringing it back. I just get so frustrated sometimes when people talk about what's lacking but convey this tone that it's absurd or beneath them to participate in bringing about change. How many of your reading this are now chuckling and nodding your heads? ;)

Is it possible I'm loading up on extra-curriculars for another reason? Sure. Am I trying to fill up my life a little more since my son needs me a little less? Maybe. Who knows! I know our family size isn't going to change any time soon so I can't sit around pretending Gavin has the same needs as he had as an infant. He can entertain himself a bit, can communicate his needs (somewhat) and even responds to what I need from him. He can come with me to choir practice or come along to bible study and play with the other kids. There are ways to make it work. And if I find I'm overwhelmed by everything, I'll figure out what needs to go. I do know that pretty much everything I'm doing, or planning to do, is important to me and makes me happy. So let's see how this goes! :)

Cuteness

As is typical for me, I spent today being just so darn productive I worked myself into bone-weary exhaustion. Normally I'd happily let Rob take care of the evening routine but Gavin would have none of that tonight. Rob was able to brush his teeth, during which time I laid down on his floor. When Gavin came dashing in, he immediately plopped down next to me, looked me straight in the eye and said, "Whatcha doin'?" Oh so cute! :)